No Funny Face Friday Today

I woke up this morning with an overwhelming,  unsettling sense of sadness and please forgive me...but I just cannot bring myself to post my usual Funny Face Friday.

I do think though, that I've identified the source of the struggle, what's causing me to walk around with a short circuit. It's just weight. It's extraneous stuff. It's real and imagined, it's physical and emotional and philosophical. It's the way stuff builds up over time, like plaque, innocent and natural and harmful, and it's heavy.

Sadness that my period is two days late and the test I took this morning was very negative.
Sadness for what is happening in Boston and Texas. Such destruction and heartache.
Sadness that I'm unable to being a new life into this world. 
Sadness that I might bring a new life into this mad, crazy and scary world.

There's no simple solution to something so vague and omnipresent.

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Normally I'd try and talk myself out of this...but today...today I am just going to let it be.


Comments

  1. Just TApril 19, 2013 at 10:05 AM

    Gosh Janet I have been feeling the same way this week. Just overwhelming sadness and depression. I hope you feel better soon.

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  2. KelBelApril 19, 2013 at 10:22 AM

    Sending you lots of love. xo

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  3. Dragon's BlossomApril 19, 2013 at 10:33 AM

    I feel the exact same way. Sometimes I wonder why I try so hard to bring a tiny precious life into this crazy messed up world. Almost doesn't seem fair to that little innocent life. I know there is a lot of good and kindness in the world too that makes it all worth it so I never give up.

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  4. Our Journey Through This Lovely LifeApril 19, 2013 at 11:14 AM

    I feel the same way today. Just sad. This world has gone mad. I am so sorry that stupid AF is playing mind games with you :( Big hugs today!

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  5. MariaApril 19, 2013 at 11:30 AM

    You haven't left my thoughts. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way but so glad you take the time you need to feel. Sending so much love xoxox

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  6. ErikaApril 19, 2013 at 11:34 AM

    Such a horrible week. I'm sorry that you had the sadness of a negative test to pile on top of it all. :(

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  7. ChickenpigApril 19, 2013 at 1:20 PM

    Nothing to be funny faced about this week :( I'm thinking of you. I hope that the weight is a little less next week, and the week after that.

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  8. JustMeApril 21, 2013 at 10:58 PM

    Janet, I am so sorry. Ugh. What a shitty day/week/month. I hope there is a way to clear off the "plaque" soon. It's not fair to see you held down.

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  9. SadieApril 22, 2013 at 7:53 AM

    Sending huge hugs Janet.

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