Imposter Syndrome

Today I am 13 weeks and 5 days pregnant. But even as I write that, I feel like I’m an imposter... a lady just pretending to be pregnant. That can’t be me I’m talking about!

I've kept my promise to be positive about this pregnancy with Adam. I smile and hug him when he asks how baby and I are doing; I humor him when he rubs my belly. But the sad thing is, I still have a hard time believing it. Even with this...

I'd like to think I look more pregnant then, wow...that girl has eaten too many burritos!

Is that weird? I should be comfortable with this "you are pregnant" thing.  Anyone else feel this way? I could use some words of wisdom. 



Comments

  1. Just TMarch 18, 2014 at 1:31 PM

    You definitely look like the pregnant woman and not the one who ate to many burritos :) I think what you are going through is perfectly normal and acceptable. I bet it will sink in more and more as you progress throughout this pregnancy :)

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  2. Mrs. LostMarch 18, 2014 at 1:36 PM

    You look pregnant for sure, because you are so tine everywhere else! You are doing great. I am still waiting for things to totally sink in and I'm 21 weeks so I get it.

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  3. Our Journey Through This Lovely LifeMarch 18, 2014 at 1:47 PM

    You are so adorable!

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  4. waiting and wishingMarch 18, 2014 at 1:50 PM

    So cute!!!!

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  5. AmieMarch 18, 2014 at 2:54 PM

    You look preggo for sure! So very cute :)

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  6. Crabby SunflowerMarch 18, 2014 at 4:15 PM

    I'm at 19 weeks today and feel the same way... I'm not sure when it will truly hit me that this isn't just a food baby. Maybe when I can feel her moving. Stay positive, you look great!

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  7. AnonymousMarch 18, 2014 at 4:57 PM

    Sometime in the next 2-3 weeks, if not already, you will feel little flutters. You'll dismiss them as nothing but that is the baby moving. Definitely makes it more real.

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  8. Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.?March 18, 2014 at 5:46 PM

    Enjoy the beautiful belly! I miss it!

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  9. khariniMarch 18, 2014 at 6:46 PM

    ohhh, how I missed this!! Congratulations!!! big big hugs!! you are very pregnant!

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  10. JenSMarch 18, 2014 at 7:44 PM

    I felt weird and in disbelief my whole pregnancy. I was huge and waddling and it always caught me off guard when strangers would ask me about my pregnancy. Always took a second to realize they were talking to me. It does start to feel more real once you feel movement, though. You definitely look pregnant and not full of burritos!

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  11. Non Sequitur ChicaMarch 20, 2014 at 1:35 PM

    You definitely look pregnant!! It took me a looooong time to realize that I was actually pregnant so I think it's pretty normal. :-)

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  12. KelseyMarch 25, 2014 at 9:01 PM

    You are so cute! That excellent little bump of yours should be proof enough that someone is growing in there...but I know what you mean. It feels unreal...every now and again it hits me that THERE IS A BABY IN THERE!!, but most of the time I hardly believe it. I wonder if fertile women have the same amount of disbelief??

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