Unexpected?

Just got the call that I had been fearing but perhaps was expecting.

The embryos were not there. We have nothing.

Heartbroken doesn't begin to describe how I am feeling.




Comments

  1. CaitlinMarch 21, 2012 at 10:31 AM

    Oh Janet.....I am so so so sorry. What a waste of emotions/drugs/heartache/stress for the past month. I cannot imagine how devastated you must be.

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  2. waiting and wishingMarch 21, 2012 at 10:39 AM

    There are no words. I'm so sorry, Janet.

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  3. meggolaMarch 21, 2012 at 10:48 AM

    I am so upset and pissed off for you! I'm so sorry.

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  4. LizMarch 21, 2012 at 10:54 AM

    I'm so sorry.

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  5. AmberMarch 21, 2012 at 10:58 AM

    Oh no!! I can't imagine how sad and hurt you must feel right now. I can't believe this is happening. Can't you catch a break?! I'm so very sorry....hugs. I honestly don't know what to say. His is heartbreaking !

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  6. AnonymousMarch 21, 2012 at 11:07 AM

    Janet,
    I am so sorry to read this news. I've followed your blog for months and cannot believe that this happened. I am so sorry.

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  7. BridgetMarch 21, 2012 at 11:14 AM

    Oh Janet I am so sorry this happened. I have been hoping for the best for you.

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  8. JulesMarch 21, 2012 at 11:53 AM

    OK, WTF??? How did that happen??? I am so sorry you have to go through this. I call BULLSHIT!

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  9. khariniMarch 21, 2012 at 11:53 AM

    Oh Janet, this is horrible news, I'm so so sorry.

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  10. SIlverdollarMarch 21, 2012 at 12:32 PM

    Oh Janet, I'm so sorry to hear this. Will your clinic offer any sort of compensation?

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  11. MoMarch 21, 2012 at 12:32 PM

    I am so, so sorry. you must be devastated.

    Mo

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  12. Katherine SheaMarch 21, 2012 at 12:37 PM

    Thinking of you my friend.

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  13. Frankie BeeMarch 21, 2012 at 1:50 PM

    Oh no! I woke up thinking about you today. I am so so sorry - I would be so upset too. I felt sure it would turn around - it's just terribly unjust.

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  14. Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.?March 21, 2012 at 2:02 PM

    I am so sorry this happened. It is just not fair.

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  15. KanisMarch 21, 2012 at 3:39 PM

    Oh. I am so incredibly sorry.

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  16. AnonymousMarch 21, 2012 at 3:47 PM

    Oh Janet, this is so terrible. I am so sorry to hear this. Thinking of both of your.

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  17. newbieMarch 21, 2012 at 3:59 PM

    OMG, I am so so sorry. This is just awful, and so unfair.

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  18. ChickenpigMarch 21, 2012 at 4:46 PM

    I'm so, so sorry. This kind of thing just shouldn't happen. Awful and unfair doesn't begin to cover it.

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  19. AnonymousMarch 21, 2012 at 5:03 PM

    I have been following your blog in my own hope that if it works for you, just maybe it will work for me. This whole journey with the transfer and this terrible outcome is just devasting, unfair, terrible. My heart goes out to you as it also breaks for you.

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  20. KateMarch 21, 2012 at 6:19 PM

    How awful. I can't even begin to imagine how that happened. So sorry.

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  21. rtgambitMarch 21, 2012 at 7:33 PM

    I don't think I could even imagine the emotions/heartbreak you guys have gone through with this. All I can even offer is positive thoughts, lots and lots of em! You guys deserve a tiny person (or two!) to call your own.

    My second thought: did the clinic put some kind of insurance on the courier transer? Someone has to be held responsible for this, and it sure as heck isn't you!

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  22. JenMarch 21, 2012 at 8:37 PM

    I'm so so sorry.

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  23. AnonymousMarch 21, 2012 at 9:15 PM

    My thoughts are with you - I am so sorry.

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  24. DandelionBreezeMarch 21, 2012 at 9:52 PM

    My heart goes out to you... this is devastating news. So sorry for what you're going through... love and thoughts xoxo

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  25. AshleyMarch 21, 2012 at 11:31 PM

    oh god Janet this is horrible. I am so sorry and can't imagine what you guys must be feeling.

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  26. JanetMarch 22, 2012 at 8:49 AM

    I am sorry Janet... I can't even imagine..my heart is so heavy for you ...

    Please feel the love and the hugs...all the way from NC... :-(

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  27. LunaMarch 22, 2012 at 10:10 AM

    NO. No no no no no no no no no no no. NO. Having a bit of a cry for you over here. That is horrid horrid horrid news. You have some massive hugs heading to you from me and I will be thinking of you.

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  28. AnonymousMarch 22, 2012 at 9:02 PM

    I have been silently following for the past few weeks. All I can say is what EmHart said. I am so sorry.

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  29. KecharaMarch 23, 2012 at 12:07 AM

    I'm so sorry, honey. *HUG* Are you allergic to anything? I'd like to send you a treat with your socks in hopes of giving you at least a tiny smile. (Also, can you email your address and shoe size to JessieByko at gmail dot com?)

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  30. winter blueMarch 23, 2012 at 3:26 PM

    I am so sorry Janet. How devastating.

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  31. The Cornfed FeministMarch 27, 2012 at 3:40 PM

    I'm thinking of you and extremely pissed for you!

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