The Three P's

I know how important it is to be positive about this frozen transfer. How I need to keep myself and my womb free from negative thoughts. I see the logic, I do...but its hard to be positive after all that we've been through. I'm trying to push the negative thoughts away but let's be honest....that's almost impossible to do. I can't help thinking about that tank and our embryos. Is the tank empty? Are they even in there? Were they left in the bottom of the shipping tank and are now gone forever? We'll know the answer to those questions in just a couple of days and while I want to know, I also don't want to know...make sense?

This morning I had my ultrasound and blood work. Lining was at 9.4 mm and beautiful. E2 was 1,365 and perfect. Tonight I start the PIO...ugh...a necessary evil. I'll get the call tomorrow to confirm day/time for transfer. The nurse said Wednesday but I think Thursday (as per my protocol). We'll know tomorrow.

Despite all this I am determined to be positive. To do my part in thinking this baby into existence.

Be Positive, Patient and Persistent by Truly Vera Designs via Etsy



Comments

  1. caitlinMarch 19, 2012 at 4:07 PM

    It is so so hard to keep positive, especially when at the same time you don't want to get your hopes up. I found with my third FFT I spent tons of time stressing about stressing too much! Take it easy, I hope this is it. Good luck Janet, you deserve this.

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  2. ChickenpigMarch 19, 2012 at 4:25 PM

    Eh...positive shmositive. Your uterus doesn't know how you're feeling about this cycle. Women got pregnant during the plague years. It either works or it doesn't, regardless of how you feel about it.

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  3. AmberMarch 19, 2012 at 4:31 PM

    Hoping for a perfect transfer!! I'm sure it's impossible not to be stressed given your situation. Sending some hope your way!! You have a lot of people on your sideline cheering you on.

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  4. waiting and wishingMarch 19, 2012 at 5:20 PM

    Sounds like you are doing everything you can! Thinking good thoughts for transfer day :)

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  5. DandelionBreezeMarch 19, 2012 at 6:00 PM

    Know how you feel... so hard to stay positive and always wondering how much of a difference it really makes. I try so hard sometimes that I get stressed about being stressed... guess that can't be helping ! Thinking of you for your transfer and hope your little ones snuggle in tight xoxo

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  6. newbieMarch 19, 2012 at 9:46 PM

    Your numbers sound great and I'm really hoping this is it for you! Fingers crossed for a great transfer and 2 healthy embryos!

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  7. AnonymousMarch 20, 2012 at 11:52 AM

    Janet,
    My fingers are crossed for you.

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  8. JulesMarch 20, 2012 at 12:17 PM

    Go totsicles go! Wishing you a very smooth transfer!!!

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  9. LunaMarch 21, 2012 at 7:27 AM

    I have my cheer pom poms at the ready to cheer your little embryos on. Go babies! All my wishes heading your way.

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