The Big E
Oh Estrogen...why you be hatin on me?
I have been on Estrace for 14 loooong days and still have another nine days until transfer - assuming of course we even have embryos left but thinking about it makes me throw up in my mouth just a little and curl up in a corner in the fetal position so better to try and not think about it but let's be real here shall we...that's impossible *sigh*
The side effects are getting to me. I've not been my usual self. I've been spending a lot of time alone in my head lately and trust me, it's always a dangerous place to visit unattended!
I knew fertility treatments were going to be hard. I was prepared...correction...I thought I was prepared. I was even prepared for the fact that despite my awesome preparedness it still was not enough because as hard as you know it’s going to be… you just never know truly how hard it is until you are smack dab in the midst of it all. The knowing just isn’t enough.Yeah, it’s hard. The hardest. There are no words.
I have been on Estrace for 14 loooong days and still have another nine days until transfer - assuming of course we even have embryos left but thinking about it makes me throw up in my mouth just a little and curl up in a corner in the fetal position so better to try and not think about it but let's be real here shall we...that's impossible *sigh*
The side effects are getting to me. I've not been my usual self. I've been spending a lot of time alone in my head lately and trust me, it's always a dangerous place to visit unattended!
I knew fertility treatments were going to be hard. I was prepared...correction...I thought I was prepared. I was even prepared for the fact that despite my awesome preparedness it still was not enough because as hard as you know it’s going to be… you just never know truly how hard it is until you are smack dab in the midst of it all. The knowing just isn’t enough.Yeah, it’s hard. The hardest. There are no words.
Ug. Sometimes there are no words is right. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteYuuuuup. It sucks balls!
ReplyDeleteSo true... I thought I was prepared too but nothing could ever have prepared me for this !!! Thinking of you and FXd for your transfer xoxo
ReplyDeleteHugs hunny, hang in there. It sucks. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteJanet - I'm still following along with you. Praying that this cycle becomes easier. I'm thinking you have some tough little embabies for your transfer.
ReplyDeleteI haaaate the hormones! I've now been on estrogen and progesterone for a couple months now and it's *killing* me. Just takes the joy out of everything.
ReplyDeleteI have my fingers crossed for you this cycle that your embryos turn out to be just great, and this cycle works!
Estrogen drives me soooo nuts! Hang in there!
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