Sadness is emotional pain associated with, or characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, despair, helplessness, sorrow, and rage. The days following the news that our precious embryos did not survive were hard...really hard but I was also surprised that after a day of tears (many, many tears), I picked myself up a little and did my best to be happy. We had a great weekend. We went to a movie, we had friends over for pizza & game night. It was good. I was happy. And then the sadness hit me again. I was thinking about the grief yesterday. And this morning, and most of the rest of my waking hours, actually. I was wondering why this pervasive sadness was back again, when not even getting to transfer after a cycle isn't really as bad as having a miscarriage, no matter how early that miscarriage was. And I realized, because I'm so bright that way, that the sadness is back because this isn't any different than the grief of the miscarriage. It's all on...
I have HUGE fear of public restrooms. The crack in the door is only one contributing factor. Since I am from Oklahoma and most of us are total redneck, I will have my husband pull off on the side of road and pee in bushes.
ReplyDeleteACK! No, thank you!
ReplyDeleteI totally agree!
ReplyDeleteHaha.. I'm just glad I'm not a man and don't have to deal with the "Wandering eye accidentally stops in wrong place at next urinal in use."
ReplyDeleteAhhh! So true! (And hilarious, thanks for the laugh lol!)
ReplyDeleteYou really are a funny lass - thanks for making me smile!
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