Silence

I think I'm starting to be afraid of being happy because whenever I do get too happy; something bad always happens.

I just don't have words at the moment so I will let the silence speak when words can't.

by Promopocket via Etsy


Comments

  1. Just TOctober 18, 2013 at 11:47 AM

    Thinking of you today my friend.

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  2. SadieOctober 18, 2013 at 11:56 AM

    I think I know what you mean. It's so hard to let the good in when you're anticipating at every turn it being snatched away from you. And sadly, some of us have learned that from experience. I hope you continue to find moments of happiness in defiance of all that crap, because you really deserve it Janet. Sending hugs.

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  3. Mrs. LostOctober 18, 2013 at 2:43 PM

    I understand... I hope things get better. Prayers!

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  4. JustMeOctober 19, 2013 at 9:23 PM

    So sorry, I hope you can find a way to tenuously enjoy your happiness. I'm waiting for more words to understand more, but for now. Just say in the moment as best you can.

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  5. MariaOctober 24, 2013 at 7:37 PM

    <3<3<3

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