730.484 Days Ago

April 27, 2011 - On this spring day two years ago I closed my eyes and threw myself straight down the rabbit hole and published my first post on this very blog.

 April 27, 2013 - On this spring day, it was my two year anniversary and I missed it.

 May 21, 2013 - On this rainy day, I realized that I've missed my two year anniversary. Like really, really missed it!

 To say that a lot has happened in the last two years would be an understatement of epic proportions. The last two years have been stuffed full of pain, hurt, despair but also joy, happiness and laughter and to be honest with you - I wouldn't trade these past two years for anything - it's helped to shape me into the woman I am today. 

Happy "belated" Two Year Anniversary to me!

Comments

  1. Just TMay 21, 2013 at 10:34 AM

    I loved reading this! So many people choose to only see the negative of infertility (and that is easy to do). I also feel like it has turned me into a different person in many good ways.

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  2. LizMay 21, 2013 at 1:20 PM

    Happ belated 2 years to your blog. As much as it all sucks, positives do come out of these experiences too.

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  3. SadieMay 21, 2013 at 1:38 PM

    Even though I often have a hard time doing it myself, I know it's important to acknowledge the silver linings that come with all this crap. The online community, which has helped me to cope, would be a big one. I'm glad you started blogging, thank you for sharing!

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  4. ChickenpigMay 21, 2013 at 2:05 PM

    Happy Blogoversary! May the next two years have more happy posts than sad ones :)

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  5. AramisMay 21, 2013 at 6:53 PM

    Happy anniversary!

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  6. JuliaMay 21, 2013 at 7:41 PM

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  7. Mrs. EMay 21, 2013 at 7:42 PM

    Happy anniversary!

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  8. MariaMay 22, 2013 at 1:22 AM

    happy anniversary! i'm so glad you started this blog...i love reading your inspiring words. love and prayers always, janet. xoxox

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