Sadness is emotional pain associated with, or characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, despair, helplessness, sorrow, and rage. The days following the news that our precious embryos did not survive were hard...really hard but I was also surprised that after a day of tears (many, many tears), I picked myself up a little and did my best to be happy. We had a great weekend. We went to a movie, we had friends over for pizza & game night. It was good. I was happy. And then the sadness hit me again. I was thinking about the grief yesterday. And this morning, and most of the rest of my waking hours, actually. I was wondering why this pervasive sadness was back again, when not even getting to transfer after a cycle isn't really as bad as having a miscarriage, no matter how early that miscarriage was. And I realized, because I'm so bright that way, that the sadness is back because this isn't any different than the grief of the miscarriage. It's all on...
That is awesome gift. Now quit running around outside in your robe :)
ReplyDeleteSeriously though, I am sure that did wonders for you mindset and helped you relax. You deserved it for sure!
It was funny when we arrived to see people wandering the grounds in their robes and men with hairy chests eating in theirs! It was an amazing weekend!
DeleteWhat a great gift!! What did you get done?
ReplyDeleteWhat a sweet gift. hope you enjoyed!
ReplyDeleteJEALOUS!! What a fabulous and fun gift!!!
ReplyDeleteThat looks so relaxing! Gorgeous place!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful! What a wonderful gift!
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