Sadness is emotional pain associated with, or characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, despair, helplessness, sorrow, and rage. The days following the news that our precious embryos did not survive were hard...really hard but I was also surprised that after a day of tears (many, many tears), I picked myself up a little and did my best to be happy. We had a great weekend. We went to a movie, we had friends over for pizza & game night. It was good. I was happy. And then the sadness hit me again. I was thinking about the grief yesterday. And this morning, and most of the rest of my waking hours, actually. I was wondering why this pervasive sadness was back again, when not even getting to transfer after a cycle isn't really as bad as having a miscarriage, no matter how early that miscarriage was. And I realized, because I'm so bright that way, that the sadness is back because this isn't any different than the grief of the miscarriage. It's all on...
LOVE the pictures :)
ReplyDeleteHow Fun! Welcome Home!
ReplyDeleteI love the pictures! I hope today wasn't too rough...
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, all of the pictures are beautiful!!
ReplyDeleteWelcome back! The pictures you shared made me realize that Amsterdam is just as beautiful as I thought it would be!
ReplyDeleteHope this trip has revived your fighting spirit!
I'VE BEEN TO ZAANSE SCHANS!!!!! When I was 16. Basically this means we are twins.
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