Beta #2

I got the results of beta #2 this morning and the news isn't good...


Beta was 43 on Wednesday, beta yesterday was 41. Cycle #3...chemical pregnancy.


I am devastated and heartbroken. I feel like the bottom just fell out of my world. 


So sorry to disappoint you all. 

Comments

  1. JenDecember 24, 2011 at 9:24 AM

    Oh Janet...I don't even know what to say. I have no words that could possibly comfort you during this very sucky time. I'm so sorry to hear this news. My heart aches for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  2. Frankie BeeDecember 24, 2011 at 10:31 AM

    Oh no - I am so so sorry! I know you must be devastated. I can't believe this. what a damn unforgiving rollercoaster. Please take good care of yourself and you will be in my prayers.

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  3. AnonymousDecember 24, 2011 at 11:22 AM

    I am so very sorry. The same thing happened to me with my first IVF. I hope you can be held by your closest loved ones this holiday season. Much love to you.

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  4. CDecember 24, 2011 at 11:32 AM

    Oh I am so sorry. I just started following you recently, and I was really hoping it worked! I am very very sorry.

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  5. JanDecember 24, 2011 at 11:49 AM

    ugh... well that just freaking sucks Janet... BUT I know you for the absolutely freaking kick ass girl that you are! YOU are simply amazing and I have seen you hold your chin up when things were not going right. I don't know what to say because I can't imagine how hard it is and what you are feeling, from going from that high to this low. I wish for you peaceful vibes this Christmas season.... I hope you get to spend time with the ones that mean the most to you... I am sorry my friend.... I truly am...

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  6. The Cornfed FeministDecember 24, 2011 at 12:10 PM

    Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze. Virtual hug. Thinking of you!

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  7. ChickenpigDecember 24, 2011 at 12:59 PM

    Oh crap! I'm so sorry you're going through this. Do you have to get another beta done? Tons of hugs and sympathy.

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  8. waiting and wishingDecember 24, 2011 at 1:43 PM

    Oh Janet, I'm so sorry. I've been there, and I know how much it sucks. I'll be thinking about you this weekend. Hang in there.

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  9. AnonymousDecember 24, 2011 at 6:08 PM

    Ugh, so sorry you have to go thru this for Christmas! Thinking of you and best of luck next time!

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  10. AnonymousDecember 25, 2011 at 9:57 AM

    Dear Janet, I am sorry to hear this. I hope that being surrounded by loved ones over the Holidays will lift your spirits. Bigs Hugs from the both of us, V & E.xoxo

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  11. LmacDecember 27, 2011 at 10:42 AM

    I know the pain is horrific. Do not feel like you have disapointed anyone, it is not true and the guilt is to much to handle.

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