Happiness to Fear

My oh my...how things can change on a dime. Yesterday's high to today's low. 


I'm spotting and with yesterday's low beta and a lighter line on the HPT today...I am feeling despair.


*sigh*


It will be what it will be and there is nothing I can do to change it but it just seems so damn unfair. 


I quit Christmas. 


Update...*** No more spotting***


To each and everyone one of you that have shown me such love and support...Thank You from the bottom of my heart.


Comments

  1. Frankie BeeDecember 22, 2011 at 10:20 AM

    Oh no, I am sorry, but don't despair. Alot of women have spotting, even bringt red, and everything turns out ok. Praying that this passes and all is well.

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  2. waiting and wishingDecember 22, 2011 at 10:22 AM

    Oh no! I know that must be worrisome. I hope it passes quickly and you are just one of those women who experiences a little spotting in early pregnancy. Repeat beta tomorrow?

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  3. Janet Off KilterDecember 22, 2011 at 10:25 AM

    Christi - No spotting just now after going to the restroom. Repeat beta tomorrow morning. I'm sure your second beta will be nice and high!

    Thank you TurtleMama!

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  4. ChickenpigDecember 22, 2011 at 11:36 AM

    I know it's hard not to panic, but chances are everything is ok. My first beta with my daughter was only 40 at 14d3dt, and it only went up to 60. Your still PUPO! Hang in there!

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  5. The Cornfed FeministDecember 22, 2011 at 11:41 AM

    Highbetahighbetahighbeta. Fingers crossed!

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  6. JenDecember 22, 2011 at 12:41 PM

    Praying for an excellent beta tomorrow, and no more spotting! Stay strong! Your strength has always inspired me during my infertility journey. And it continues to do so. Fingers crossed, eyes crossed, and toes too for good news tomorrow!

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  7. AnonymousDecember 22, 2011 at 12:57 PM

    Oh no, I was just about to congratulate on the news! I really hope it's just a scare and nothing else. I have followed along with much hope for you.

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  8. JanDecember 22, 2011 at 8:41 PM

    1 out of every 3 pregnancies have spotting.. or so the doc told me... so you are right on target? I pray you stay preggo Janet.. I want to see you cuddly and all fluffy ... with your butt so big that Adam has to help you get out of the chairs!! I am pulling for you my friend!!

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  9. AnonymousDecember 22, 2011 at 9:12 PM

    Crossing fingers and toes and sending all manners of good thoughts your way. xox

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  10. Sean Ski DudeDecember 22, 2011 at 9:52 PM

    We'll keep the positive thoughts going.

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