Beginning My Thirty Ninth Year

Well, here it is. August 3, 2013 - I am officially 38. Which technically means I am beginning my 39th year of life...but for my sanity and the fact that last year was pretty crappy...my best year ever begins today. Hurrah.

So let’s begin with a first day check-in. I feel the same as I did yesterday (at least I think I will...I'm, at this very moment, likely hanging out on a granite cliff 200 feet up enjoying the view that Bon Echo so beautifully provides and writing this post August 2 cause I can't post from the middle of nowhere yo).

What do I plan to do this year? Let’s see…here are a few of my intentions for The Great 38.

  • Get Published. Anything really. Amateur or professional - just published. This is something that I have been thinking about since I was a little girl
  • Get my body back - sort of. I want to prepare my body and soul for baby JaAdam but I'm not willing to endure much else in the way of drugs/treatment to conceive baby JaAdam...if that makes any sense at all.
  • More quality time with my best friends. The ones I love so much and miss everyday because we live far apart. More trips with the intention of visiting and more attention on them rather than on me.
  • Vacation more. Sure there are many destinations I would love to explore. But let’s face it, life gets in the way. When I can travel, I will. And I will enjoy exploring sites, taking adventures and living the experience. I've already got a running start to this one...first up...Amsterdam in three weeks with my sister.
  • Walk with my fears instead of running from them. Well, walk with some of them. That’s a start right? I'm 38 now so i guess its time to work on my mental toughness a little more.

My birthday wish as always is for inner peace and to listen more than talk. I came close to finding some inner peace in year 37. I am hoping I can put most of my emotional and mental roller coaster ride from the last few years behind me and start over-living instead of over- thinking.

Cheers!

Happy August 3rd to you.

Antique Original Brass Mining Tag Number 38 Vintage by The Old Time Junk Shop via Etsy


Comments

  1. Just TAugust 3, 2013 at 8:47 AM

    Happy Birthday Janet!!!!!!!

    Hoping this next year is filled with lots of laughter, love and good memories :)

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  2. waiting and wishingAugust 3, 2013 at 9:49 AM

    Happy birthday, lady! I hope you are enjoying you day, and I hope your year is just as fulfilling as you are wishing :)

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  3. Team HarriesAugust 3, 2013 at 10:28 AM

    Hope you have a very happy birthday!

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  4. KelBelAugust 3, 2013 at 8:00 PM

    Happy Birthday!! Sending lots of love your way!

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  5. KCAugust 3, 2013 at 9:52 PM

    Happy Birthday, hope you are having great day!

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  6. Frankie BeeAugust 4, 2013 at 3:45 PM

    Happy Birthday! Wishing you much happiness in this new year!

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  7. JustMeAugust 5, 2013 at 1:53 AM

    Happy Late Birthday!! I hope you did something special for yourself yesterday. I think your goals for this year sound wonderful. I wholeheartedly support them :)

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  8. Non Sequitur ChicaAugust 5, 2013 at 12:07 PM

    Happy belated birthday!! I hope you have a fantastic year!

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  9. MariaAugust 6, 2013 at 11:56 PM

    happy belated birthday, janet! i hope this year brings all that you hope for. and all that you so deserve. it has been a blessing getting to know you and to share in the beautiful way you live your life. thank you for inspiring me. and thank you for being a sweet friend!
    i hope that year 38 is GREAT and full of joy and peace and always hope! xoxoxox
    maria

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