When I started this blogging adventure I didn't really know what to expect. I figured I'd talk about my life and infertility struggle and cross my fingers that people might just be interested enough to read what I wrote. It strikes me as funny when I look back and laugh at the old naive me that had no idea what I was getting myself into?
Turns out, blogging is like real life. There are ups and downs, highs and lows, and everything in between. And while most experiences are positive and encouraging, every once in awhile I have a bad day.
Today is one of those days.
Sad. That is what I am feeling right now. I can give you a good number of reasons why I am sad, but that is not the intention of this post. I can also add a whole bunch of other emotions such as frustration, disappointment, anger and exhaustion into sad, but for now, I will umbrella them all under sad.
The human experience is filled with a range of emotions. It is the experience of these emotions and the ability to deal with them that makes us complete human beings. Being complete, whole human beings is the goal we should instill for ourselves, it is at least a goal I try to attain for myself.
I not very good at trying to hide how I feel. I know that some people are but I often wonder about this paradox – that those of us who walk around devoid of emotional expression are more “normal” than those of us who express sadness. We are human, the point is, we FEEL. Feelings are sometimes good, and sometimes, they suck. Bad and sad things happen.
Here’s the thing that we're missing...we need to get in touch with our sad feelings to understand what makes us happy. Sad emotions help us know and get in touch with what’s important to us, what we truly want to fill our life with joy, and sometimes it’s just about empathy and compassion. Without allowing ourselves and our friends to experience sadness, we lose out on the potential to experience true joy.
So, the next time you are sad, instead of avoiding or suppressing your feelings, try asking yourself what would bring you joy? That's what I'm going to do.
I am sorry you are having a rough day. Sending lots of hugs your way! xo
ReplyDeleteThinking of and praying for you today.
ReplyDeleteLamentations 3:22-23
God’s loyal love couldn’t have run out,
his merciful love couldn’t have dried up.
They’re created new every morning.
How great Your faithfulness!
I’m sticking with God (I say it over and over).
He’s all I’ve got left.
I'm sorry that you are having such a rough day. I hope that you are able to figure out what would make you happy and hopefully get to a better place soon.
ReplyDeleteRough days suck! Cry it out! I have NO problem with tears. ((((hugs))))
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're sad today, though I think what you said about sadness is very true: how if we don't let ourselves experience sadness, we miss out on feeling real joy. I hope happiness is just around the corner. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteoh, janet, this touched me so much. i can relate to so many of your words...was just having a conversation with steve about the subject of joy and sadness. i am always sending love your way and wishing you all the best. without sounding creepy, i think of you SO often and say a lil' prayer for you. lots of love xoxoxo
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Sometimes even thinking about something that would bring me happiness isn't enough. And that is ok. We have been through a lot of sh*t, no one can expect us to be happy all the time.
ReplyDeletebright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens...