Last week I posted sixteen reasons why I love being pregnant and I DO love being pregnant but I'm also not not afraid to admit this...pregnancy is also terrifying!
I don’t know what’s going on with my body. No one tells you what’s normal and what’s not. Even sixteen weeks in, I'm constantly on guard. Every twinge, every ache, pull or tickle has be on edge. Is the baby all right? Is he still alive? Will I miscarry? I naively expected those fears to go away the further I got but the truth...not even slightly.
Take yesterday for example. I woke up, went to work, going about my day when I felt a gush and I knew, just knew what I was going to find and my worst fears were realized...blood. Not a lot but enough to send me reeling. I called my OB's office and within a couple of hours, we were in for an ultrasound...
|Baby boy is a bendy one...those are his legs/feet above his head|
I'm thrilled to report that everything looked perfect. Baby boy (tech took a look and he's indeed a boy) measured perfectly and the details we were able to see was incredible. We saw all four chambers of the heart, both little kidneys and we could even see the adrenal glands, she even showed us the blood flow to both. Stomach, bladder, feet and toes...all there. Baby boy was moving and shaking with a heart rate of 150. Cervix was long at 3.6 cm and nicely closed. No sign of any bleeding.
In my OB's words "It's just one of those things".
I'm to take it easy, rest and relax and I'll try my very, very best to put the terror aside and do just that.
I cherish...Every. Single. Day.