Sadness is emotional pain associated with, or characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, despair, helplessness, sorrow, and rage. The days following the news that our precious embryos did not survive were hard...really hard but I was also surprised that after a day of tears (many, many tears), I picked myself up a little and did my best to be happy. We had a great weekend. We went to a movie, we had friends over for pizza & game night. It was good. I was happy. And then the sadness hit me again. I was thinking about the grief yesterday. And this morning, and most of the rest of my waking hours, actually. I was wondering why this pervasive sadness was back again, when not even getting to transfer after a cycle isn't really as bad as having a miscarriage, no matter how early that miscarriage was. And I realized, because I'm so bright that way, that the sadness is back because this isn't any different than the grief of the miscarriage. It's all on...
That gift box idea is brilliant! I love the pic of fire, it is perfect for that wet cold weather. Here in Oklahoma we are breaking records. Yesterday it was almost 80 degrees! I am ready to get my fireplace going again.
ReplyDelete80 degress...I think I just cried a little Toni!
DeleteLovely lovely weekend. I am glad you made it too, the photos are gorgeous.
ReplyDeleteThanks!
DeleteLove love love the photo's and the sting tradition sounds so fun! Mmm peppermint mocha's are the best on a cold day! If only it would get cold here in Ohio it 67 flippin degrees today! I am not happy about it one bit! Send some cold and snow my way would ya!
ReplyDeleteI'd send the cold your way but it's warming up to 59 degrees today...not cool!
DeleteI've been wanting a peppermint mocha so bad lately! I love the gift box idea too. We spent the weekend watching movies since my husband actually had a Saturday and Sunday off for once.
ReplyDeleteI love those kinds of weekends!
Deleteoh do you have a real fire place? i am so jealous!
ReplyDeleteYes and I love it! Hearing the crackle is my favourite!
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