Sadness is emotional pain associated with, or characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, despair, helplessness, sorrow, and rage. The days following the news that our precious embryos did not survive were hard...really hard but I was also surprised that after a day of tears (many, many tears), I picked myself up a little and did my best to be happy. We had a great weekend. We went to a movie, we had friends over for pizza & game night. It was good. I was happy. And then the sadness hit me again. I was thinking about the grief yesterday. And this morning, and most of the rest of my waking hours, actually. I was wondering why this pervasive sadness was back again, when not even getting to transfer after a cycle isn't really as bad as having a miscarriage, no matter how early that miscarriage was. And I realized, because I'm so bright that way, that the sadness is back because this isn't any different than the grief of the miscarriage. It's all on...
very nice - how did you decide to go with cherry blossom?
ReplyDeletePretty!
ReplyDeleteI love it and love the fact you got something that holds a special meaning for you!
ReplyDeleteThanks for visiting my blog! I also have a cherry blossom tattoo. They are simply beautiful and I love how they are so meaningful. They are quite the obsession with me :)I have also planted two cherry blossom trees and hope they grow up to be beautiful trees!
ReplyDeletei LOVE it, janet!! the colors are fabulous!! i want another one soon!
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maria