Unaccustomed & A Bright Spot

Unaccustomed - adjective - not familiar or usual; out of the ordinary. That's how I feel about 'good news'. I'm so used to being on the receiving end of bad news that I must admit...I've become very unaccustomed to that magical thing called 'good news' so when I headed to my fertility clinic yesterday afternoon, I was trying to prepare myself for what I was sure was going to be 'bad news'.

Bad news is what I know when it comes to the state of my hostile uterus. The last three years plus seem like one big bundle of bad news (interspersed with a spot of two of good - but mostly bad). I shed a tear (or two) in the car on my way to the clinic and I was a bundle of nerves by the time they called me back. It was awful. I wanted to run far, far away from the clinic as fast as I could. I wished with every fiber of my being to be anywhere else but there even as the rational part of my mind told me I needed to be here. This needed to happen. 

I walked back quietly, head down, softly responding "I'm good thanks" to her friendly question of "How are you today?". They set up, I changed and we were ready to go. 

I never once gave my usual pep talk to myself about how things were going to be fine. I was resigned for the bad. Just hit me with it. Let's get this over so I can go about my day. 

*sigh*

To my utter surprise I was met with a spot of good news...
Uterus - looks fantastic. 
Right tube - open. 
Left tube - open.

I started to cry and I cried a little more when the doctor pulled up a chair, put his hand on my shoulder and offered a few words of encouragement. 

I'm not broken. This can happen. 






Comments

  1. It can absolutely happen and I firmly believe it will!

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  2. It can totally happen! So glad you got good news!

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  3. Yay for good news! It can certainly shock us after months/years of bad news! :-)

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  4. I've shed more than a few tears at the fertility clinic. And I know all to well the feeling of just expecting bad news, because it's all you've ever had. I'm glad you were surprised for a change.

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  5. Wonderful news! So happy for you!

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