Sadness is emotional pain associated with, or characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, despair, helplessness, sorrow, and rage. The days following the news that our precious embryos did not survive were hard...really hard but I was also surprised that after a day of tears (many, many tears), I picked myself up a little and did my best to be happy. We had a great weekend. We went to a movie, we had friends over for pizza & game night. It was good. I was happy. And then the sadness hit me again. I was thinking about the grief yesterday. And this morning, and most of the rest of my waking hours, actually. I was wondering why this pervasive sadness was back again, when not even getting to transfer after a cycle isn't really as bad as having a miscarriage, no matter how early that miscarriage was. And I realized, because I'm so bright that way, that the sadness is back because this isn't any different than the grief of the miscarriage. It's all on...
I really dislike hugs! I feel like people are invading my personal space and it is very uncomfortable :)
ReplyDeleteI am a big fan of hugs but yeah, that first one must have been awkward!
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SOOOO true!
ReplyDeleteI used to not be a hugger...it would make me so uncomfortable when it came time to say good-bye and the awkward moment of "do we hug? do we not hug? I'm not hugging unless they lean in for it first." But now, I love hugs. I guess it just took me some time to get used to it since I didn't grow up in a "huggy-type" of family. What a lovely invention.
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