I Call Uncle

We all have our life stories.

We have who we knew, where we grew up, trouble we caused, fun we had, travels we made, and the dreams that act as the foundation for it all.

My life story as of late has been my struggle for baby JaAdam. For many moons now, I've been on a quest to beat the clock and try to revive my ovaries from the dead. In that time...I've shed a lot of tears, and even laughter. A lot of laughter in fact. Mostly because I make terrible jokes, and now often at the expense of my fertility woes. I'm generally pretty good at making the best of a crappy situation. Finding the good in the bad. Seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

Today is not one of those days. Today is one of those....

"Sometimes you think you're fine and then you're really not" days.

Yeah - I thought I was okay. Kind of. Today that theory was proven as wrong. Kind of. I don't know. I just know that today I hate my body.

Today is Cycle Day 8 and my clinic just emailed me the results of my Day 3 blood work and Day 5 antral follicle count. As expected...less than stellar. Am I surprised? No. Was I hopeful? Yes.

Two months ago I had an AFC of 4. This month (after two months of DHEA) I have an AFC of 6. Slightly better yes, but my lining was 4.6 mm and that is pretty thick for Day 5 so it came as no surprise that my E2 came back at 118 and my FSH was 17. High E2 can suppress FSH which means there is a potential that it is in fact higher than 17. Argh.

Come on body...I am 37, not 47...so please kindly consider backing down. We need to find a way to coexist and hopefully get along. Truce?

I Call Uncle Truce greeting card by Cami's Paperie via Etsy 


  1. Ugh Janet, I'm sorry to hear this. My body seemed to reject the DHEA and it brought my follicle count down to scary crazy low numbers like 2. How I despised day 3 and those stupid day 3 tests. Hang in there.

    1. I've been thinking about you and how amazing it is that you are expecting again. How are you feeling?

  2. Oh Janet I am sorry that you received such crappy news. What is the next step?

    1. Surgery on the 1st of November and we'll go from there I guess.

  3. Ah, I'm so sorry yesterday was such a yucky day. I go through that sometimes too...I try to look on the bright side in every situation but sometimes I fail. Prayers to you that today is a better day.

  4. Don't give up. I had an AFC of 4. After 4 months on DHEA, we did two back to back rounds of IVF getting 15 eggs in each go resulting in a total of 11 day-five blasts. On my second FET (4th transfer of two embryos) I got pregnant and I am currently 10 weeks pregnant and holding. The cycle before my successful transfer, my RE scratched the inner lining of the uterus. That is said to double the rate of pregnancy. It'll happen though I appreciate the difficulty of patience in this quest. We are entering our 7th year of TTC our first!

    1. That's amazing...thank you for the hope...I needed it!


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