Round and Round

Do you ever feel like a mouse running on a wheel?

I do. But more like a mouse with amnesia. Or an idiot mouse. A mouse who looks up at the wheel ahead of him, fixates on one spot and says “as soon as I get there, things are going to be different,” forgetting that he’s already been there, that it’s all the damn same and no matter how promising it looks, once he gets to that spot, he’ll look around and realize not a goddamn thing has changed. New day. Same wheel. And he’s still a mouse. And this is still his wheel. Things won’t be different, not tomorrow. Or in a year. Or will it? 

Tomorrow afternoon I have a call with my doctor from the clinic in Toronto to discuss the disastrous shipment of our embryos. They have been doing an investigation on their end to see if they can shed any light on the situation. After that we have to make a decision. Do we move forward and hope for the best or do we regroup?

Decisions, decisions. What would you do?


  1. I would move ahead as if the embryos will thaw properly. Since you never know until transfer day if frozen embryos have survived the thaw anyway, you might as well give them the chance. The other option is to assume that they didn't make it and toss them, but you know what they say about the word assume...

  2. I agree with never know...

    I know this is not an easy decision. Sending you hugs.

  3. I agree with Chickenpig too... they may make it OK. Hope you find out some answers tomorrow. Thinking of you during this tough time xo

  4. I think I would have to give it a go. There is still a chance right? I would grab any chance, even a small one.


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