Whispers

Last week we met with our RE to discuss my Day 3 results as well as my AFC and AMH and the steps needed to start our next IVF cycle. I'm not going to lie...I was a mess the night before. I had a pretty good idea about what he was going to say and to be honest, I didn't even really want to hear him say any of it. As I sat there in his office, staring at his tie (which was a pretty epic awesomely tie I might add) I thought about leaning over to Adam and whispering in his ear..."Adam, can you earmuff for me?". If you've seen Old School you will know what I mean. If you haven't seen Old School...you must. Anyway...

I wasn't disappointed.

In a nutshell....IVF 2.1 is going to be delayed by a couple of months. Why the delay? Well my Anti-Müllerian hormone came back at 0.5. I know...pretty craptacular right! That combined with my high FSH (17.91) and low antral follicle count (4), made him suggest that it's best to start me on DHEA, which we did that day, and then repeat my Day 3 blood work (adding in my DHEA level) and Day 5 ultrasound with my next two cycles to see if it was going to have any effect. Not the news I wanted to hear but the news I knew I was going to hear.

What I did not expect to hear is that he does believe that surgery to repair my tubes "might"  - and I use the word "might" loosely - be an option and at this point we really have nothing to lose by taking another look at this. We meet tomorrow morning with another doctor in the practice that specializes in tubal microsurgery to hear her thoughts and opinions. 

So here I stand, on the brink of yet another appointment. I am petrified, terrified beyond belief. It’s like walking into the lion’s den, after you’ve already been mauled, nearly to death, yet in you go again, knowing the danger. I have to do this, the alternative, giving up, is something I can’t and won’t contemplate.

Who knows what the future will bring. All I can do is carry on trying and hoping. 

That is what we are going to do.

Hope Whispers by Hairbrained Schemes via Etsy



Comments

  1. Ugh, Janet I'm sorry it wasn't the worlds greatest news. It sucks having to keep waiting and keep trying new things. I hope his protocol works some magic for you. Is your guys' problem that your tubes are blocked? Might be nice if the opening is an option! Good luck, I hope the appointments in the future bring only good news. I am sure you are so done with crap news.

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  2. Okay so obviously not the things you wanted to hear but certainly not a closed book. Options are options and it is great that they exist. I am crossing my fingers and toes for you guys tomorrow morning!

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  3. Ugh. But your attitude rocks and I love the sign, Hope whispers....I'm going to have to remember that when I'm looking for the rather loud response.

    Good luck!

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  4. I'm sorry for the yucky news. But at least you have some answers. It is pretty crappy though that IF usually brings more questions.

    Praying for you!

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  5. Hi there,

    This is the same person who posted in another one of your posts. Thank you do much for this blog- a
    Lifeline of sorts for those of us in the high fsh/ ivf club...

    Sounds like you have a solid plan forward for your treatment. So this is something. My RE has me on DHEA and COQ10. I would ask about adding that as well as the big NYC on DHEA and egg quality used both together...


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  6. Sorry I meant to say big NYC research study ( available online) used both together. The coq10 gave me no side effect. The DHEA is nothing compared to the fetility Meds- breeze:)

    I am in the two week wait after ivf with only 5 eggs going in. Three egg retrieved, two fertized. And both put back. Not feeling optimistic as I had a grade 2 and a grade 3 both only 5 cells on day 2. Bah! If this doesnt work I am going to enjoy a HUGE glass of
    Wine:).

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  7. Sorry I meant to say big NYC research study ( available online) used both together. The coq10 gave me no side effect. The DHEA is nothing compared to the fetility Meds- breeze:)

    I am in the two week wait after ivf with only 5 eggs going in. Three egg retrieved, two fertized. And both put back. Not feeling optimistic as I had a grade 2 and a grade 3 both only 5 cells on day 2. Bah! If this doesnt work I am going to enjoy a HUGE glass of
    Wine:).

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