Sadness is emotional pain associated with, or characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, despair, helplessness, sorrow, and rage. The days following the news that our precious embryos did not survive were hard...really hard but I was also surprised that after a day of tears (many, many tears), I picked myself up a little and did my best to be happy. We had a great weekend. We went to a movie, we had friends over for pizza & game night. It was good. I was happy. And then the sadness hit me again. I was thinking about the grief yesterday. And this morning, and most of the rest of my waking hours, actually. I was wondering why this pervasive sadness was back again, when not even getting to transfer after a cycle isn't really as bad as having a miscarriage, no matter how early that miscarriage was. And I realized, because I'm so bright that way, that the sadness is back because this isn't any different than the grief of the miscarriage. It's all on...
Beautiful pictures!
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ReplyDeleteA fellow Atlantic Canadian!!! I'm glad you had a great time :)
ReplyDeleteSomeone needs to tell mainland boyfriends/husbands that the guardrails are there for a reason! Another friend of mine had her bf leap over one at Cape Spear. She started shouting at him about rogue waves and he didn't understand why she was so pissed off. *shakes head*
ReplyDeleteBoth posts of pictures really make me want to visit. It looks so starkly beautiful. I love the picture of you in the wind!
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