Do You "Do" What I "Do"?
I woke up fairly early this morning, snuggled in bed and got to thinking about the last few months of my life & our IVF journey. All of the ups & downs...of which there have been many. I also started to wonder if I'm the only one that hides my underpants when I disrobe in the exam room? Every time I take off my underpants, I consciously ask myself why I am hiding them under my clothes. Maybe I think the doctor will take one look at them and say, “Aha! This is why you aren't getting pregnant.” Do you do what I do when disrobing?
I also woke up with an overwhelming sense of defeat that I can't quite explain. I really don't think that this frozen cycle worked. Why do I feel this way? I have no idea! The feeling is just there and I can't seem to shake it. Adam and I started to talk about what we'll do if a BFN appears. We agreed that we will make some plans for world domination!
"Gee Adam, what are we going to do tonight?"
Adam, "The same thing we do every night, Janet. Try to take over the world"
Three days until beta. While I wait I must remember...