Holding Onto Hope

Beta is bright and early tomorrow morning. It's been quite a journey to get to this point. Along the way I have discovered some good and bad things about myself but what I do know is that I have tried my very best to hold onto hope and stay optimistic. 


Tomorrow is going to be what tomorrow will be.


Hope by Little Light Creative via Etsy


Comments

  1. ChonDecember 20, 2011 at 3:54 PM

    Good luck. Tomoroow is a good day I can feel it.

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  2. waiting and wishingDecember 20, 2011 at 4:06 PM

    I have huge amounts of hope for you tomorrow! I can't wait to hear :)

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  3. AnonymousDecember 20, 2011 at 5:27 PM

    GL tomorrow, did you take a HPT?

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  4. Sean Ski DudeDecember 20, 2011 at 11:11 PM

    Fingers crosses!!!

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  5. AshleyDecember 21, 2011 at 9:45 AM

    ohhh Janet I will be checking this non stop today. thinking of you.

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  6. JanDecember 21, 2011 at 12:22 PM

    So I have been stalking you like a mad woman... have been at work last night checking like crazy... just figured out my darn sign in...whilst trying to make a new account.. go figure.

    I am dying here Janet.... i am so hoping for you and Adam that is is positive...

    waiting....

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