Sadness is emotional pain associated with, or characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, despair, helplessness, sorrow, and rage. The days following the news that our precious embryos did not survive were hard...really hard but I was also surprised that after a day of tears (many, many tears), I picked myself up a little and did my best to be happy. We had a great weekend. We went to a movie, we had friends over for pizza & game night. It was good. I was happy. And then the sadness hit me again. I was thinking about the grief yesterday. And this morning, and most of the rest of my waking hours, actually. I was wondering why this pervasive sadness was back again, when not even getting to transfer after a cycle isn't really as bad as having a miscarriage, no matter how early that miscarriage was. And I realized, because I'm so bright that way, that the sadness is back because this isn't any different than the grief of the miscarriage. It's all on...
You can do this! I'm looking forward to a good report after tomorrow's transfer!
ReplyDeleteFingers crossed for tomorrow. Please please let this be it.
ReplyDeleteGood luck!!! Hoping for good news and a perfect transfer!!
ReplyDeleteGood luck tomorrow!!!
ReplyDeleteGood luck girl!!! Fingers crossed!
ReplyDeleteGood luck!
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness. Best of luck!
ReplyDeleteSo so so so so so much love and luck!!! FX so hard and I am holding my thumbs.
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